Looking Back

Late last year I developed depression along with Ross River Virus.  The months between October and May this year were hard work. Although I didn't take any time off work (single mother syndrome vs high rental), I really don't remember much of the end of 2011 and the beginning of 2012.  I remember going to my brother's 40th in March, but I don't remember my daughter's birthday in March.  I have little recollection of Christmas, New Year, or anything really.
I do remember having a boyfriend in October though, and yet when I started to get better in April he wasn't around.  I actually have no idea what happened there.  I must admit, it wasn't a relationship that had an awful lot of substance given our individual situation (single mum, part-time dad, inner city chick, outer suburb cowboy) however it was nice to have someone who took me out, rang (actually no - texted) me occassionally, and generally having a +1.

I have always struggled to 'give'.  Emotionally give.  I can help you with all sorts of practical things, however the lovey dovey stuff I really struggle with.  Since having my daughter I have got better.  Being a Scorpio I also have an overriding desire to be in control, yet the woman in me wants to be looked after.  Such contrasts.
What this post is mainly about is - he has called (actually no - texted) and wants to meet for coffee.  So I have said yes and we are meeting tomorrow afternoon......will let you know how it goes.